Got up early today, like normal. I can’t sleep through a single night and I haven’t been able to in quite a while. No worries though, I was able to get up and run to good old Starbucks for my morning perk. See I ran out of my coffee at home for the Keurig and god forbid I could use the self-fill pod on my new machine. Hahaha, you have to love technology. If only I could modify my coffee machine, like I do to everything else. I should write the hacker’s guide to Keurig!
I’m excited for today! See not only is it New Year’s Eve and the end of 2015, but it’s my daughter’s birthday. I can’t believe she has grown up so much, I’m starting to feel old now. It feels like my wife and I were just in the delivery room meeting our baby girl for the first time. It has been a rollercoaster of a ride through 2015. I wouldn’t classify it as a bad year, just not my best. I have high hopes for the future in 2016, there are some new prospects and a new job opportunity for me. I’m excited to get back in the mix of things, doing what I love best, designing new technology driven systems. Without access to my medication, I know that 2015 would have been worse. I was able to medicate and keep focused on my agenda and overall goals. My family has always been my biggest supporters and at times with my medical condition, it’s easy to lose sight on what is truly important for me and my family.
Christmas morning was amazing, especially when I opened two Certificates of Hope (gift cards to the dispensary). My family sees the positive effect cannabis has had on my life and my outlook, no more intense anger or outbursts. I’m not hiding away from everyone in fear that I cannot act like the person I am inside. Mental illness is no joke, it’s hard for people to understand, but easy to pass judgement. I do not let people judge me, they have no right. Instead, I make a point to live my life to the fullest and to do what is morally right for those around me.
As you get ready to celebrate the New Year, please be safe. I wish you a Happy New Year and a fruitful 2016!