Up Early today!

The birds out and it’s a nice cool morning.  I woke up early to start my day before the kids got up. Hopefully I can get everything done. It looks beautiful out right now, so peaceful.

I’ve been living a “stoner life” for four years, for most people they must think I just sit around and smoke weed all day. Hahahaha, if I was only so privileged to be able too. I medicate daily and on a schedule for the most part just like I would on any other medication. It doesn’t mean that I’m lazy or spacey, I’m actually quite the opposite. Some days I enjoy the recreational side and smoke more. It allows me to think, study, socialize and most importantly keeps me calm and relaxed.

I don’t want to raise my children in a house with an angry father, always yelling.  I remember the yelling when I was growing up, not that my father is bad person. It was the early 80’s and man was it a tough time to raise a family economically. My parents are my biggest supporters along with my wife. Without them I probably would have gone back or worse. They have seen the change for the better, since I’ve become a MMP patient and with assistance with therapy I’m now able to focus and acknowledge my feelings and thoughts, instead of instantly reacting. Theses thoughts and feelings are what kept me alive in war, but I’m home now. Fighting is not my first concern anymore.

Living with PTSD, can be a rough life, trust me there are Vets out there that can’t leave their homes because of the symptoms. I’m lucky to have access to medicine that allows me to be the man I want to be and I don’t live in those conditions.

No one said life was easy! I’m sitting here getting ready to study, so I can try to advance in life and keep my family safe and happy.