Moment AloneDecided to sit outside and enjoy the sun today. The two dabs I just took have me feeling lifted and motivated to do something. My kids are off to school and I’m waiting for my wife to come back home. Fridays are the only day of the week that I get to spend time with my wife.
I love her to death, she’s always been my light when I’ve been my darkest. She was in an unfortunate accident that has left her with permanent back pain. She’s doesn’t medicate with cannabis, even though I have suggested it to help her sleep. I hope that one day she will be able to find a way to relieve her pain and be able to enjoy life to the fullest.
I hope she doesn’t have errands to run today. I like to spend quality time with her, but she’s always on the go. We are kid free for a few hours, it might be time for a lunch date. Just us, no worries, no stress.
I honestly think that if it wasn’t for her, caring for me and being my voice of reason during those dark times, I’d be dead. When I was 18, I never thought I’d see the day I turned 25. I actually broke down emotionally on my 25th birthday, and went into a room for hours by myself and pondered why I wasn’t back serving my country in combat. I wanted to flame out! Life was too slow and different back home. I could be over in Iraq helping. Not everything was combat, I went on humanitarian aid efforts, as well as, my actual job. But my brothers were dying in Iraq and Afghanistan, I was home in college. That will always bother me.
Cannabis helps me “respond” to situations not “react” as I would normally, in an aggressive manner. I can control and identify my emotions, where previously I would always push for a fight or flight situation. I would never stand-down, regardless if I was right or wrong. I would be angry for days for no reason, ready to hurt anyone. I don’t miss those days and I’m sure everyone around me feels the same.
My wife is here! Time to plan our day.
